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I’m just a 19 year old girl meandering through existence, trying to achieve my dreams… Though I’m still a little fuzzy on what my dreams actually are. I want to learn and do many things, but I need to work on my motivation and determination, as they’re severely lacking. This blog is to help me keep track of what I need to do, my dreams, inadequacies, triumphs and to release my overall negativity.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Chillin' at the Holiday Inn

Just got home from spending the night at the hotel. No real reason to go, it's just one of those things me and my mom have done since I was a little kid and we needed to get away from life. When life throws us lemons, we take a mini vacay! haha.  It was nice though, we stayed at the Holiday Inn. Usually we stay in Comfort Suite (if we're up in Georgetown) or Embassy Suites (my favorite).

I downloaded the game Neopets Petpet Adventures: The Wand of Wishing hahaha it's soooooo cute. My mom just looked at me like I'm a freak, but I can't help it, I've been playing Neopets for years and me being 19 isn't going to stop that! =] It's actually pretty cool, they did a good job making it.

I'm also reading this book called Rock Paper Tiger by Lisa Brackmann, I'll post a review of it once I've finished. It was good up until the middle, but now it's just... meh. Who knows, maybe it will get better.

Finally, I found this awesome blog called Steamy Kitchen  which includes lots of different recipes. I'm addicted to cooking right now for some reason, and I really want to try to make lots of different things. I'll post up my cooking misadventures here, I think. Hopefully I don't destroy the kitchen too badly ;)

P.S. my first ever google adsense check arrived!! I'm so happy!
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Thursday, June 24, 2010

My first purse + new bike!

I finally finished making my first purse, I'm so happy! It's not the best in the world, but for a first attempt and basically no knowledge of sewing I'm happy with it :D

I got most of the fabric from hobby lobby, picking from things I like the most, travel, cupcakes, funky stuff like the skulls, etc. I made the closing strawberry with felt and sewed velcro onto the purse and the strawberry. On the back I made some felt cherries and glued them onto it. I couldn't figure out what to do for the handles, but my mom brought home some pretty green rope from her work so I used that.

I apologize for the blurriness, used my webcam to take these pictures. I so want a new camera =.=

In other news, I'm going to get a bike!! I haven't rode a bike in yeaaaars, I'm excited and the bike is gorgeous! It's totally retro, my mom said she had a bike that looked like that when she was a kid. This one has a pink and black design. I love it! We're going to put it in layaway at kmart and I'll take pictures of it once I get it. It's a "Schwinn Windwood 26 Inch Women's Bike."

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Frustration and Movies

I am SO frustrated right now. For my websites, I have to write some "master" articles for some 3wl sh*t owned by this crazy uber christian john leger or whatever. It's a ridiculous site, but apparently it will put my sites onto the top rank in google, soooooooooo. Blah. I am not a person who can write bs easily about a topic I have no real interest in. You would think writing 250 words would be easy, no? Wrong. Cute summer dresses. 3 paragraphs, each with 3 sentences, equaling 250 words. Then you have to go and write TWO MORE ARTICLES that are a variation on the same freaking thing. It took forever to think of crud to write for the first one, and I have no idea what to say for the other two stupid articles! It's pissing me off. I guess I'm taking these articles too seriously, but I can't help it, I hate, hate, hate writing bad things! It goes against my grain to write tripe. I guess I just need to get used to writing spam. Sigh, somehow I feel that I wouldn't do well writing for a newspaper. Haha.

Anyhoo, who is excited for "The Last Airbender" and "Eat, Pray, Love"? Me! I've been watching the anime for "The Last Airbender" and I cannot wait to see the movie! Although I'm a little concerned about the cast choice. Especially the actor who plays Zuko, Sakka and Iroh. =s I'm also not loving Katara's hairstyle, I wish they'd kept it closer to the original! I absolutely am dying to see "Eat, Pray, Love." The book was amazing and I'm hoping the movie will be just as good. Anyone who hasn't read that book yet should go read it immediately! They even have a Spanish version on amazon.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Obento & Happiness

Just discovered a super cute bento blog e-obento. I'm crazy about bento, even though I don't get many chances to make it, and I love looking at all the blogs there are for it! I really wish to learn to cook better, and I hope this summer I can try to learn more. Cooking is very fun, especially when you can make it into cute charas!

I would like to try something like that Julie did from Julie & Julia, where she made a new recipe every night. I guess I just need to learn how to commit to things... I'm not sure why I have such a problem with it. I need to become more serious, or I'll always be stuck in "I would like to.." and "I wish I could.." and I hate that.

I recently acquired a book called "The Daring Female's Guide to Ecstatic Living" and one of the dares is to do something for at least 10 minutes a day that makes you ecstatic. I really don't do any of the things I love to do, I just wish about doing them.

So, from now I'll start daring to do the things I love to do, without making excuses, even if I have no real need for it. Like making a bento, or singing, cooking, sewing, exercising. We should all do what makes us happy, right?

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Fukuhara Miho - Himawari

Fukuhara Miho is amazing! I love the sound of her voice, and the stories and messages in her songs are always beautiful and well made. This song even made me cry (although I blame PMS mostly.)

I guess it's something many of us can relate to, right? Losing a person you cared for dearly, whether it be a best friend, a family member, a lover, you never forget that person no matter what happens. It's like there will always be a little hole in your life, and though you keep moving on, growing older, having new friends, new loves, you always yearn for that person who made you so happy.


"The earth still turns, even if you're not here..." It doesn't feel like it should sometimes, though... But, I guess that's life, huh? You just have to keep moving forward, and keep all that's lost alive in your memories.

If you want to buy Miho's biggest hit CD "Rainbow", which includes songs like "Himawari", "Change", and "Love: Winter Song" you can buy it on Amazon for about 16 dollars, a great deal!

Monday, June 14, 2010


I picked up an old edition of National Geographic over the weekend, August 1997 to be exact, and I noticed an article about coral reefs entitled "A New Light in the Sea." It states on the opening picture:

"At twilight in the Red Sea I photographed corals with an electronic flash. They look mundane and dull (below). Then at night my diving partner David Fridman plays a powerful ultraviolet light over the same corals, and they explode with unimaginable color."

Mundane and dull?? Who in their right mind could consider the bottom picture mundane or dull? Although fluorescence in coral is intriguing and pretty, I personally think as far as artistic appreciation goes the bottom picture is far more beautiful than the ultraviolet version above.

This photographer obviously is lacking in any true artistic talent. The original coral, with it's subtle oranges, greens, browns, and reds, is truly gorgeous in my opinion; the shapes, textures, and colors are so vivid and blend so well together, you could stare at it for hours and still keeping finding new surprising details. I wish I had a better camera to do the image the justice it deserves. Ok rant over, haha.

I guess it just goes to show everyone views things different when it comes to beauty. Everyone has their own tastes and opinions, and everything is beautiful in it's own unique way. Whether it's the flamboyant beauty of the peacock or the subtle charm of a coral bed, we should learn to appreciate all things nature has to offer, instead of casting something off as "mundane" or "dull". Because, in this world, there is nothing dull.

Note to self: buy a new camera!!